i tried to be your picture perfect girl, but you were living in your own fantasy world.

its funny you know. were friends, but it doesnt really feel like that. it so hard to put into words. but here it goes.

so a girl from a big town met this boy from a small town in 2008 and they couldnt stop talking, k cut the bullshit, this isnt another fairytale.

we may not be "together" or in a "relationship" however you wanna define those two words, but we gave a new definition to "friendship"

friendship according to the life of vanessa hannay and zac petrucci:
"two people you care about each other, who reach out to each other, who are always there for one another, despite the differences, the heartbreak, the troubles, the past, two people who are not only willing but determined to make things work. two people who look at each other for what theyre worth on the inside, two people who love each other but will only say as friends because the truth is thats all those two people are meant to be right now. two people who reach for the stars together, share every thought and dream with each other, and arent scared of the future because they have each other. basically two people who experience together."

there are no limits on our friendship. i believe what we have is so strong, i dont think it will ever fade into the small figments of our minds. we are always going to be a part of each others' lives. and im thankful for that.

maybe i love you more than a friend, but im not going to ruin what we have right now.

so for now, zac petrucci, i love you as a friend.

-nessa.

all i do is think of you.

i look outside through the glass door

hoping that on the other side there is more

i look outside to the wilderness

and all i can do is think about how i miss

your hugs that followed every visit

falling asleep on the phone just listenin'

your voice that held my name so safe in your mouth

holding hands day in and day out

your kiss that made me fall in love

now i sit alone and look above

the sky holds no answers you see

all i get is clouds that stare back at me

when i go to sleep i lay there with no clue

all i can do is think about you 

i try to tell you again and again

that we are going to be together in the end

you say were fifteen we dont know what we want

i say live in the moment never give up

i only cry at the thought of goodbye

because i know we could work this out if we tried

our love is pure and that i am sure

you plus me is the only cure

i sit around thinking of what to do

because all i do is think about you

you think you know what is best

when in reality you know as much as the rest

dont make this mistake 

dont make this story a heartbreak

just this once please trust me

i know that we would both be happy

every two normal people fight

because no one is always right 

i love you and you love me

why cant that just be the end of the story

follow me lets do this together

you plus me only makes things better

so dont wait or hesitate when you know what to do

all i can do is think about you

-nessa.