and maybe im not over you, and maybe i still love you, and maybe youre the only one who can make me laugh, and maybe youre the only one who makes me feel special, and maybe i want you, and maybe we should be together, just maybe

moving to missouri-or should i say misery.

if the title of this post didnt give it away, im really sad. i dont want to move. i dont know what else to say besides the fact i dont want to move.

secrets

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til' all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
I've been on the brink, so
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
My god, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

-nessa.

fresh pair of eyes

'Cause I want to be seen
With a fresh pair of eyes
The single white tree
In a black hood of disguise

-nessa.

every night someone thinks about you before they go to sleep.. at least fifteen people in this world love you.. the only reason someone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.. there are at least two people in this world that would die for you.. you mean the world to someone.. someone that you don't even know exists loves you.. when you make the biggest mistake ever something good comes from it.. when you think the world has turned its back on you take a look.. always remember the compliments you've received and forget the rude remarks..

-nessa.

“When all is said and done, you are part of me. That's the way it was meant to be. People are brought together for a reason, everything happens for a reason. I believe the reason that you and me were brought together was because we complete one another. We fill in each other's missing spots with love. And if someday God decides to tear us apart, I trust that there is a reason. Cause if there is a reason for love, there is a reason for life beyond it.”

-nessa.

raindrops.

Spring flowers bring May showers
Grab the umbrella, head out for an hour
Raindrops come light at first
One by one they quench my thirst
Comfortable now as the drops hide my tears
All my lies, my deepest fears
Look up to the sky, clouds so grey
There's no use in asking you to stay
Raining harder than before
Fail to see light before the storm
It seems as though my heart keeps breaking
My own fault, the toll its taking

-nessa.

shattered.

Shattered within and out
Lack the strength to fight and shout
Feel like a bottle of nothingness
Stole the heart right out of my chest
Beating, beating no longer here
My hands shake as the tears
Roll down my face, leave a trace
Each tear breaks as it hits the floor
Is there even a point anymore?
Pull myself together try it again
My knees collapse, defeated in the end
Reminding myself to breathe
Distracts the image of when you leave
Grab the armor, cover up the lies
Who has to know I cry?
If this is the way it has to be
Promise you still care about me
And if I die before I wake
Forgive me for my mistakes

-nessa.